I didn’t make any New Year’s Resolutions this year, because I am really bad about thinking ahead or planning for things that I should be doing or changing or whatever. Although, actually, I didn’t do TOO terribly with last year’s resolutions. In 2012 I resolved to drink more water and less coffee, floss and stop buying lunch every goddamn weekday.
I’ll tell you right off the bat that I have not been flossing. Maybe it’s left over from my childhood dentist trauma (can’t get into that now, too traumatic), but I absolutely hate flossing. I did recently get an electric toothbrush…as a Christmas gift…from my mom…so maybe that will be good for my teeth? I don’t know. I’ve only had probably five cavities in my life, so I think my teeth are fine, probably.
On the bright side, I did completely stopped drinking coffee. I had managed to get mildly addicted to it by 2011, and I really have no idea why, because it makes me feel absolutely terrible – all jittery and anxiety-ridden and prone to panic attacks where I’m convinced I’m having a stroke and have to email my friend who’s a nurse for reassurance that I’m not about to drop dead. So yes, I gave that up, and I have probably been drinking a little bit more water, but still not enough. Drinking water is so hard! Maybe I’ll start doing like Maria Bamford does in that routine I can’t find a clip of right now and just open my mouth in the shower for hydration purposes.
I did do a great job with that last one. I used to buy my lunch literally every goddamn day. This was a problem because it turns out that is a lot of money! When I moved at the end of June, I gave it up almost completely, and now I buy my lunch once a week at the most, sometimes not at all. Honestly, this is probably 90 per cent because my new apartment has a dishwasher so now I can bring Tupperware to work and not be filled with rage about needing to washing containers by hand later, but I’m still impressed with myself.
As I said, I don’t have any really specific resolutions I’m working toward this year, I just want to keep doing small productive things that make me feel happy and healthy. For example, I stopped eating wheat/gluten/whatever in September. I really hate talking about it because it sounds sooo obnoxious and EVERYONE has stopped eating gluten and no, I don’t have a gluten intolerance or celiac disease or anything that I know of, I admit it. That being said, it’s made me feel better than how I felt before, so I’m going to keep doing it and just try not to talk about it if I can avoid it. Basically my thoughts are: yes, it’s dumb, but it works for me.
I’ve also become really interested in improving my budgeting skills. This is because I am obsessed with Gail Vaz-Oxlade, and every single time the shows ‘Til Debt Do Us Part or Princess are on, I’m compelled to watch them. If you’re Canadian and have cable, you totally know what I’m talking about. Mostly they make me feel great about my own finances, but they also inspire me to get my shit together. Plus, I read The Billfold every day, which is a super excellent and educational website filled with genuinely interesting articles and thoughts about money.
I actually ended up creating a budget back in November…but then it was Christmas and I totally blew it off and went way over. That’s OK, though, I’ve paid off my credit card and I’m starting over. I have historically been kind of a disaster with money, so I feel like budgeting is a necessity for me, and I think I’ve made a realistic enough plan. Basically I just want to pay off more of my student loan than I had been, and also put more money into savings every month.
OK, these are good but really boring things, and obviously I want to do fun things that are fun too! So, I would also like to challenge myself a bit more. That’s why, as I previously mentioned, I’m going on a short ski trip with my dad at the end of the month. This is pretty scary for me, since it’s been almost exactly 10 years since I last hit the slopes. Gross, I just wrote “hit the slopes,” who am I? Anyway, I’m cautiously optimistic that it’s going to be fun, and I’d also like to start doing other things I used to enjoy and haven’t done in a million years. Like skating! And swimming! And maybe I’ll do new things, too, like get a pedicure or learn how to cook one thing. Just one. Let’s not get crazy.
So what’s the theme here? I’m going to do good things that make me feel good! It’s vague enough that it should be hard to fail, and if I end up achieving even a couple positive things, I’ll be filled with feelings of success. Win-win.